In My Blood (Elaboration)

In My Blood
Performed by Shawn Mendes

source: https://shawn-mendes.com/

1
Help me, it's like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I just can't
It isn't in my blood

What is it that I can do to help myself?
It is impossible to escape these conflicting feelings!
What should I do? Surrender?
It is a choice I get to make ..
Still, it is not me!!

2
Laying on the bathroom floor, feeling nothing
I'm overwhelmed and insecure, give me something
I could take to ease my mind slowly
Just have a drink and you'll feel better
Just take her home and you'll feel better
Keep telling me that it gets better
Does it ever?

Staring into the void .. would it get me any where?
I'm in a chaotic world, I am abandoning my own self;
Thousands of feelings are taking over? How could I choose?
I am led to the void once again; back to nothing; what do I need to loosen a bit? I need something .. anything!
Abundance of guidance engulfing me .. Is it gonna be leading me for the BETTER .. You never know!

3
Help me, it's like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up
No medicine is strong enough
Someone help me
I'm crawling in my skin
Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I just can't

Should I follow my heart?
All of it depend on my own choice of my own path,
The guidance is fading away,
I cannot reach it; abandonment;
It is within me; emerging from deep within;
I'll surrender ..
No .. It is not me, neither my morals.

4
It isn't in my blood
It isn't in my blood

How hard would it be; you never know; I guess ..
The real me will figure it out.

5
Looking through my phone again feeling anxious
Afraid to be alone again, I hate this
I'm trying to find a way to chill, can't breathe, oh
Is there somebody who could ..

Looking past every thing; penetrating the core;
Alone .. scared ..
Breathe, it's gonna be OK .. I am crashing against myself; broken,
Where is the path? My PATH?

6
Help me, it's like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up
No medicine is strong enough
Someone help me
I'm crawling in my skin
Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I just can't

It will arrive .. HELP ..
Some body is appearing in the far distance,
Looming in the horizon,
I just have to be patient,
It's getting darker, harder, ..
Maybe this is the end .. I'm done .. I can feel it
No .. Wait .. It is me!

7
It isn't in my blood
It isn't in my blood

I'm pulled out; rescued; by who?!

8
I need somebody now
I need somebody now
Someone to help me out
I need somebody now

It is not arriving,
It is not coming,
Too late,
No one has come!

9
Help me, it's like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I just can't

I'm losing,
I've reached "the end", ..
The end before the new start,
It has arrived, some one came, standing at the very end,
I see him .. standing next to me .. within me ..

10
It isn't in my blood
It isn't in my blood
It isn't in my blood
I need somebody now
It isn't in my blood
I need somebody now
It isn't in my blood.

It is ME,
It has always been me,
I am pulled together,
I am my own godfather,
No one is needed,
The blood running through my veins will suffice.